I miss you so much, it hurts

Poem that I wrote to go with this picture, it has no name:

I stand here tonight by our bed, Hugging your pillow close to my chest.
Your scent filling my nose as the tears soak the fabric.
I know you left because you had no choice.
You were called away to preform your duty and protect our home.
I smiled and Joked as I said good bye, But on the inside I was Dieing to cry.
I wanted to scream and tell you don’t go, beg you not to leave me alone.
I hugged you and kissed you once more, before you walked away from me.
Your gun on you shoulder and your boots carrying you out of my reach.
I am lost when you are not home. The ghost of your presence is everywhere I look.
You call and you voice is low and echoy, I can barely hear you over the static.
I hold back my tears as I listen to the exhaustion in your voice.
I am hurting so much knowing your in danger and I am unable to reach you.
Your daughter lays in her own bed, after asking me where Daddy is.
I tell her Daddy is gone to be her Hero.
I am left with a hollow feeling in my chest wondering when I will hear from you again.
We are missing you so much, and send our love to you across the sea.
I will continue to hold back my Tears,
Put on a Brave face and hold back all my fears.
Til the day you come back home….and Our family is once again Whole.



......I am just depressed and frustrated.....so god damn lonely....I miss him so much its hard not cry everyday. Its only been a week and I don't know how I am going to handle 8 months. I feel empty without him here, without hearing his heart beat or feel his arms around me while I sleep.

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